Well, Here I Am......

Thesis.

Check.

Weight loss progress, gym, or anything else in my life.

Not so much.

I'm officially posting a "WATCH THIS SPACE" sign here.

I'll be back.

Delaying the Inevitable No Longer

I hate this time of year. And I hate resolutions.

I didn't used to. But for some reason, these days, I always feel so damn defeated come January 1st.

So my resolution this year?

Not to make any dang resolutions.

Now, let me clarify here. I am all about goals -- goals broken into small manageable chunks. And I think one of my downfalls over the last 6 months was abandoning my goals. That and relying far too much on my non-existent willpower to steer me in the right direction. As I have mentioned before, willpower is not my forte. And if I am honest with myself, which I have forced myself to be since my pants stopped fitting, I will never be a girl who can turn down food.

It gives me a bit of comfort to know I'm not the only one struggling with my issues and there are some good reads to be found here, here and here. Why is it, exactly, that we let this one time of year demolish us? I mean, in general, I'm a strong confident woman. But this time of year never fails to make me turn into a blubbering idiot. Honestly, if I weighed 120 pounds, I would still probably freak out! What have we let the media and ourselves turn this time of year into? It certainly explains why I am much more fond of Khmer and Chinese New Year's now! No resolutions. No regrets. No pressure! And more silly traditions...

Ahh 2009, you've already kicked me in the ass. I hesitantly say I have hit rock bottom. And you are only a few days old! I suppose I need to look forward with hope. I have 360 days left to figure out where I'm going...

Back to the gym for starters!!!!!!

So, here we go. Forward. Monos va!

FGS