I need a little INSPIRATION!!!!

PHENOMENAL WOMAN
by Maya Angelou

Pretty women wonder where my secret lies
I'm not cute or built to suit a model's fashion size
But when I start to tell them
They think I'm telling lies.
I say
It's in the reach of my arms
The span of my hips
The stride of my steps
The curl of my lips.
I'm a woman
Phenomenally
Phenomenal woman
That's me.

So I put this poem up which I'm sure everyone has read a million times as a little inspirational reminder to myself that I am great.

I'm still not feeling it though.

I'm like a little ventriloquist puppet these days -- I can say the right words but I don't really believe them. Nor do I always do what I know I'm supposed to do. It is Slackerville for me these days.

Sigh -- whoever said "the road to hell is paved with good intentions" certainly knew what they were talking about! It is so easy to plan and plot when it comes to weight loss. Heck, I have the most detailed journal of what I should be doing at the gym today. The other part of it is the hard work and commitment, neither of which I seem to have in spades these days.

I was reading a post the other day (think it was one of the fab girls on the WW boards!) where she was talking about the ebb and flow of weight loss. I'm so with her on this one! I go through periods where I can lose and work out everyday for months at a time -- and then I seem to hit a wall (like, um, NOW) and can't be arsed to do a thing. I'm maintaining, but can't seem to push myself to do more. And then (and I can already feel this coming) I get sick of doing nothing or my body is just ready for more and I'm back at it again, full on the way I like it. But in these down swings I feel SO USELESS! And, to top it all off, I feel heavier and larger than I was when I started all of this 30 some odd pounds ago! What's up with that?

And the funny thing is I know if I just dragged my butt back to the gym or got out of bed earlier to work out, I'd feel better. But I don't do it. I know how to fix my little broken bits right now, but can't be bothered to do it!

Can you say RUT? Rut rut ruttedy rut!

I've been here before, and I know I will get out of it. But really can someone PLEASE kick me in the ass and make me stop whining about it??? I mean really!

In other news, I have to take a moment to count my blessings. First off HBB. He's in the kitchen right now making me another pot of coffee. I lurve him! And he's perfectly happy eating WW cuisine. Sigh, does it get any better? And I think he thinks I'm a Phenomenal woman so that is a step in the right direction...So that is my happy thought for the day.

Okay, enough with the self flagellation! This too shall pass..............

Lots of love and chocolate covered kisses,

FGS