Big Fat Sigh.........

Yeah it's Thursday! And I can't stop stuffing my face...... Okay, so stuffing is a bit of an exaggeration. But I think I jumped back into this healthy lifestyle of mine a wee bit too quickly without thinking it through. The past has taught me that when you try to get back on track with both your eating and exercise at the same time, life becomes difficult.

Maybe that's just an excuse.

Maybe I just need to get over myself and stop eating like it's going out of style.

At least I'm back at the gym! Three more sessions with PT and then I'm on my own. Am I freaking? Just a wee bit. But, I can do this.

"Where have you let yourself down?"
So Tuesday night on the Biggest Loser, Ali said something very profound -- I know, crazy but still. When look at a poster of herself and how she was before she lost 99 pounds, she said "Where have you let yourself down?". Okay, so she said it way better than that but that was the gist of it. Letting yourself down. Sigh. I've been doing a lot of that lately. Not in my personal life, no no. But certainly when it comes to living a healthy lifestyle and losing weight and getting exercise, I've been slacking. I have been letting myself down. Period. I think sometimes it's easy to slip back into old habits. But, and here's the big BUT, now I actually catch myself when I'm slipping not after I've totally slipped and wallowed around and begun a pity party for myself. Makes me think that maybe I haven't really let myself down when you really think about it. Because at the end of the day, I haven't given up on me. I'll never give up on me again.

Side Conversations
Yesterday a good friend of mine and I had a long chat about this annoying coworker of her's that is on one of those low carb diets. This coworker has made a point of being obnoxious about how much weight she's lost and just how tough her diet is, etc. etc. I don't know why people have to be sooooooo annoying about their diets -- maybe because they want support and want to feel good about their success. Sure I'm guilty of looking for those external supports too. I mean, who hasn't asked if their ass was looking better. At the end of the day though, to me it is a much better compliment when someone just says how good you are looking without you having to ask for the compliment.........
I am also going to refrain from giving my opinion on low carb and other super restrictive diets because I think what ever works for you, works. But I will add my two cents on lasting weight loss success. I wonder just how people who are on crazy restricted diets can make it year after year after year when they are only allowed a limited array of foods to eat. I mean, I have willpower and all folks but living the entire rest of my life without a glass of red wine or a bowl of ice cream?!?! That's just unthinkable. I'll be the first to admit I get jealous when people come in saying they've lost 5 pounds during the week or are having heaps of success. My journey has been slow and less gratifying. I'm stronger than I've ever been and that is a huge victory. So, I'll keep reminding myself though that I'll take my 4 pounds a month weight loss. Slow and steady wins the race, right?
Another friend of mine just started Slim for Life. She had previously done WW and hated it because she had to count points. Now she has to weigh in two time a week and eat a very restricted diet. I remember when I started Jenny Craig. I lost heaps and quickly because it was so controlled. Guess what peeps? I gained it all back plus ten pounds. Why's that you ask? Well, because I never learned to a)take personal responsibility for what was going into my mouth b)to cook and prepare meals and foods that were good for me and not prepackaged and c) to fix the underlying reasons of why I'm an emotional eater to begin with.

So I wish these ladies success in their diet adventures. I'm sticking to my slow method.

And that's all the news that's fit to print! Sigh, yes I am Little Miss Whiny Pants right now......... I'll get over myself sometime soon!

FGS