I'm not lost....I'm distracted......

I'm still here.

Just distracted.

Well, Here I Am......

Thesis.

Check.

Weight loss progress, gym, or anything else in my life.

Not so much.

I'm officially posting a "WATCH THIS SPACE" sign here.

I'll be back.

Delaying the Inevitable No Longer

I hate this time of year. And I hate resolutions.

I didn't used to. But for some reason, these days, I always feel so damn defeated come January 1st.

So my resolution this year?

Not to make any dang resolutions.

Now, let me clarify here. I am all about goals -- goals broken into small manageable chunks. And I think one of my downfalls over the last 6 months was abandoning my goals. That and relying far too much on my non-existent willpower to steer me in the right direction. As I have mentioned before, willpower is not my forte. And if I am honest with myself, which I have forced myself to be since my pants stopped fitting, I will never be a girl who can turn down food.

It gives me a bit of comfort to know I'm not the only one struggling with my issues and there are some good reads to be found here, here and here. Why is it, exactly, that we let this one time of year demolish us? I mean, in general, I'm a strong confident woman. But this time of year never fails to make me turn into a blubbering idiot. Honestly, if I weighed 120 pounds, I would still probably freak out! What have we let the media and ourselves turn this time of year into? It certainly explains why I am much more fond of Khmer and Chinese New Year's now! No resolutions. No regrets. No pressure! And more silly traditions...

Ahh 2009, you've already kicked me in the ass. I hesitantly say I have hit rock bottom. And you are only a few days old! I suppose I need to look forward with hope. I have 360 days left to figure out where I'm going...

Back to the gym for starters!!!!!!

So, here we go. Forward. Monos va!

FGS

Merry Belated Christmas!

Ahhh my poor neglected blog! And my poor neglected readers!

Merry Christmas!
Hope you had a wonderful one!

Love,
FGS

ps. Trust me, the new year will be bringing some serious blogging!!!!!!

Everyone Needs a Luck Dragon

Including me! But man I was lucky yesterday. Got to school on time in the middle of a snowstorm when everyone else was late. Got a jury summons, but when I looked closer it was addressed to the old owner of my house. Found a program that will let me defer my student loans for longer. Sigh. Wahooooooooooo.

Weight wise, I've made it to the gym 3 times this week and I'm going again tonight. Then I'm going to go once this weekend. I decided that this week was about getting back to the gym, not counting everything that goes in my mouth. I have learned in the past that when I try and start both things at the same time, things go horribly wrong! So I'm letting my body get used to burning more calories during workouts and on Monday I am going to start doing the Daily Plate again.

That's all for now folks! I'm still half asleep and can't seem to make my fingers work.

Hasta la proxima,
FGS

Why 80's Music Rocks on Mondays

I think I can file this one under totally off-topic blogs. But hey, I just couldn't help it. I've been on vacation for a week (thank God for turkey!) and I needed a little inspiration to get myself back to work. And back to the gym......

So here it is. Why 80's music rocks on Monday:

1. Because who doesn't love Journey.
2. Synthesizers made the world a better place.
3. Cougar wasn't just an over-aged woman trolling for men at a bar, he was a man who wanted it to hurt so good.
4. Cartoons came to life, a-ha they did!
5. A bad hair day just wasn't possible in the 80's.
6. Peter Cetera. Who doesn't want a man to fight for their honor?
7. Music was wholesome. Rick Springfield is reminding me not to talk to strangers, especially French strangers.
8. Who doesn't love being compared to a cherry pie?
   
9. Because work truly is the Danger Zone.
   
10. Prince.

In a not so off-topic, absolutely not related to the 80's train of thought, Thanksgiving was an eating fiesta that has left me with very tight pants. They were just tight before, now they are very tight. That combined with a lovely picture of me looking like a beached whale (yes literally, peeps) that my friend took has really been an eye-opener. So I've scheduled gym time with my friend for this afternoon. And we are gonna get physical....

Tee hee...off to work!

FGS

PS. For more inspiration, click here.

Golden Years

Don't ask me what possessed me to title my blog this way. Maybe the fact that David Bowie is blasting on my iPod right now... but really, who knows.

So it's Thursday, and I can't believe there is still one day left in the longest week of my life. I haven't had any coffee yet either. And could I whine a little bit more?

Yes, yes I can! This week, the elementary teachers in my building (it's K-12) were all out of the building at a training. And my school is so ghetto-fab that they decided the intervention and special education teachers would cover the classes. All I have to say is good times. And to all you teachers out there who leave shitty sub plans, I curse you and wish you a classroom full of unruly 2nd graders with absolutely NOTHING for them to do.

Oh I am a bit annoyed this morning to. And no matter how many times I tell myself, I'm having a really hard time getting over myself.

BUT, yes there is always a but! I went to the gym last night! And I had a fabulous work out! Sigh. 30 minutes of cardio, followed by arms and 30 more minutes of cardio when my friend showed up and abs. Ok, so the weights weren't crazy -- and I didn't hit every muscle group. But, BUT, BUT - I MADE IT TO THE GYM!

As I was lifting, I decided not to try and recreate moments with PT -- because I also think this has been one of my hang ups with heading to the gym lately. I can't recreate a PT workout, but you know what -- it doesn't really matter. I can get close! As I was working out I decided to go back to the Body for Life pyramid model. I used to do this at my old gym and had some good results with it. So for now, I think I might use the model again. Until I'm ready to try and create a work out as hard as PT's used to be! I was also considering downloading a few workouts for my iPod (anybody have any good suggestions????????). My main concern with that is that they won't be hard enough. Ok, I know that sounds a bit ridiculous -- but I build tolerance quickly and need to switch things up routinely. There's also the possibility that I could suck it up and go back to spin class (which I love) and the cardio pump boot camp weightlifting extravaganza class (if I wasn't so scared of it!).

But for today, I'm just going to be happy with the fact that I went to the gym and had a good work out! Yeah me!

And there is only one more day until Thanksgiving Vacation!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Love ya love ya love ya,
FGS